hell begins...

okeh..dah stat dah fall semester yg baru..huhu..haii...harap2 aa aku bole keep up ngan sume subjek aku amik..yg aku rasa akan kantoi dah cam 2 klas dah..hoho..takpe2..where there is a will there is a way..masalahnyer tak nampak lagi way nyer kat mana..gelap lagi nih..hmm..baru first week kot..ilek2 aa dulu aku rasa..heh

~nuff said~

omar balik dah..hmm..tak tau aa nak kate apa...balik dah omar..haiii..i'm not as lively as i used to be aa today..why aa? pelik gak aku ari nih..cam buat sume benda tak betui jek. aduh, kena take time off nih. lama sangat tak men basket kot..ntah..

besok ez ajak sume org gi zoo. but you know aa not too many cars aa. so if i'm lucky ada aa muat aku nak gi sok..kalo takde tempat..hmm..cam biasa aku gi men basket kat veale aa kot..nak dekat dua minggu gak aa tak men basket. ntah ada ke tak lagik jump shot aku nih..ahh fuck..seriously i'm feeling really gloomy right now. i don't know why. nak kate aku ada buat salah ari nih, takde la plak duduk umah elyas jek keje aku. so basically i did nothing much today. arghhh, apsal aku camni ari nih?

anyway next week stat class..tengah runsing skang nih..nak amik stat ker nak amik 301?..aduh..kalo aku amik stat aku kena overide sebab klas penuh. kalo aku amik 301, berasap aa kepala aku next sem....waaaa..camana nih?..

baru skang aku perasan aku nih tak berapa terer buat decision...ntah aa..asik delay jek..biasa aa..bukan apa..aku jenis org yg kalo dah pernah kantoi buat sumthing pastu terus phobia nak wat benda tu lagik..argghh tensen tul aa..i really need to do this but...aduh..ntah aa..camana nak cakap aku pon tak tau..no words for it anymore..mungkin sebab tu kot aku down ari nih..takkan aa..satu hari down nih..wth?

argghh..can't even do this one thing right. it's not that i don't want to but i just don't have the courage. aduh..kalo aku confident cam abg aku kan best..ilek jek..tu aa..lacking confidence satu, phobia satu...aduii..cam2 masalah aa..camana nak idup nih?..confidence pon takde..waaaa...

ntah laa labu..

~nuff said~

huaaa..guiltynyer saya...

ari nih angkat barang lagik..gi tippit plak tulun bebudak pompuan tuh..tapi tak byk sangat kot sebab ada "professional" movers tolong angkat skalik..huhu...berabuk la plak tippit..aku bukan bole kena benda2 berabuk nih..nak kate aku asma doktor kate takde..tapi aku jadik semput..hoho..few minutes of fresh air ok jer balik..aku nyer tangan kiri tengah lenguh nih..tak tau apsal..

i've done one bad thing today..dah aa ari jumaat..huhu..sorry yek sesape terasa..bukan niat pon nak buat jahat tadik..serius rasa guilty gile skarang...waaa!!..tak penah aku buat benda jahat nih..isk2..abes record baik aku..huhu..anyway..ari nih aku kena masak kat umah zul..dammit..malas giler nak masak..masak sambal telur je kot..pastu goreng ayam..yes2..tu je kot yg aku reti skarang..hahaha...baru mintak mak aku ajar camana nak buat sambal ari tu..dah lupa aa..lama tak masak sambal..dulu time cuti form 3 aku reti aa masak sambal bodo..skarang dah hilang skill aa..kena marah ngan mak aku ari tuh..haha..camana bole lupa?..ntah..tu jek kot..tak byk benda jadik ari nih..al maklumlah..abes semayang jumaat balik umah tido..la ni baru bangun..teruih tulih benda alah nih..lama sangat tak update..ari tu update pon dua tiga baris jek..tu jek kot..

~nuff said~

huarggghh...hulk smash!!!

hmm..baru bangun..awal giler bangun..ok aa kot semalam pon awal gile tido..penat siot semalam angkat barang huhu..dah stat terasa dah nih sakit bahu angkat barang semalam..anyway..takde byk nak tulih pon dalam blog nih..saje je nak update..tapi tak tau nak tulih apa..haha..bengong..

~nuff said~

another sleepless night..

aiyoo..can't sleep aa tonight..ntah aa..dah kol 530 dah nih..aduh..asal takleh tido nih?

haiya..what to write also i don't know..tadi call mak aku..tanya petua masak sket..hohoho..ye aa..next sem kena masak sendiri beb..nak tak nak kena aa stat masak..hoho..anyway..dalam sepuluh kali aku call mak aku mesti sepuluh kali mak aku tanya soklan sama..dah ada yg berkenan ke?..aduh..tensen aku ngan soklan nih..berkenan ada jek..nak melekat tu yg susah sket..hehe..ntah aa..tadi nak sakat sket mak aku..tanya aa..susah2 mak je aa carik..haha..aku tanya aa ada calon dah ke?..satu list panjang dia bagi..hahaha..serius..damn..lawak gak aa tadik sakat mak aku..huhu..ok aa tu kot..lama gak tak dengar mak aku gelak..heh..ntah aa..lama lagik aa kot pikir pasal kawin nih..kekadang aku pon terasa yg perangai aku nih blom lagik sesuai nak jaga anak dara org..haha..mak aku kate kalo ada berkenan bawak balik..kena ada screen test..kalo nak mak carik calon, takyah screen test..approved on the spot..hahaha...lawak siut..tak tau plak mak aku pon pandai melawak..hehe..terhibur gak hati aku malam nih..

dah aa..cukup aa aku melalut pagi buta nih..nak tidoq..kalo bole..

~nuf said~

hmm..ari ni ari apa?

ok..aku dah stat jadik cam winter last year..dah tak tau ari apa weih..serius..gile aa..bosan pon dah berada di tahap critical dah nih..takde aa tahap gaban lagik dah..critical terus..

well, what do i want to say today...nuthin much kot..considering that i've been asleep for 12 hours straight everyday and that makes my reality hours quite short...ntah aa..nak kate ada benda best tak jugak..ada aa kot some carnival in little italy..but, cam bosan aa plak kalo gi sengsorang..bebudak nih tak bangun lagik..aku tak mandi lagik nih...just woke up..best wooo tido..

read some of ur blogs ppl...best gak aa...tanak aa cakap aku baca blog sape..nanti kang ww3 plak..tak silap jadik ww4...but the thing is i don't know la betui ke idok ada org yg cuba utk memecahkan bebudak kat sini..aku pon teperanjat..uish..is that true?..someone trying to break us up? ntahlah aku pon tak tau..and if there is someone who wants to do that, what kind of satisfaction can it bring? kekadang aku pon tak paham...skarang nih rata2 aku dengar backstab sini...backstab sana...apsal la jadik camtu? what kind of sick bastard that likes to do that kind of stuff?..ntah ler..kalo ada org terasa bagus jugak..sedar la diri tu sket..kita duduk kat sini patut jadik satu comuniti yg tolong menolong..bukan cam katak bawah tempurung..betui ke idak peribahasa aku pon tak tau..janji cam sedap jek aku baca...come on aa..don't act childish a weih...dah masuk university dah pon..dah nak grad dah..dah nak gi jadik pemimpin negara masa depan lagik..camni ke perangai?..come on aa..where was the CASE family?..serius aa dulu aku tak kisah aa kalo sume org pandang aku pastu kate aku sombong ke..tak rapat ngan org ke sebab dulu i feel like i'm in a famili..so i don't care.."air" dicincang takkan putus aa..

but now aku rasa walaupon aku cam dah bole masuk ngan sume org..tapi aku rasa "air" tu dah beku...kalau kena tetak, putus camtu jek...

~nuff said~

lagu hits utk mu..hahahaha

lagu nih dulu aku kutuk gak aa kot..skarang tetiba rasa..cam aku jer lagu nih..hoho..well..that doesn't matter la kot..saje jek nak post benda nih sebelum aku gi men basket sat agi..kol 6 pon blom..tu yg rasa bosan tuh..haha

"If I Let You Go"

Day after day

Time passed away

And I just can't get you off my mind

Nobody knows, I hide it inside

I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know

I've never felt so much love before

And once again I'm thinking about

Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go

I will never know

What my life would be holding you close to me

Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

How will I know. if I let you go?

Night after night

I hear myself say

Why can't this feeling just fade away?

There's no one like you (no one like you)

You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)

It's such a shame we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose

But sooner or later I gotta choose

And once again I'm thinking about

Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go

I will never know

What my life would be, holding you close to me

Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

(oh yeah) How will I know if I let you go ?

Once again I'm thinking about

Taking the easy way out Ooooooooohhhhh

But if I let you go

I will never know

What my life would be, holding you close to me

Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

How will I know if I let you go?

~nuff said~

what the hell is wrong with me..

huwaaa...hari yg cukup bosan..tak pindah lagik nih..besok kot pindah..huhu..

anyway..dah takde modal dah kot aku nak tulih blogger nih..tapi terus je aa tulih apa2 yg tersirat dan tersurat kat blog nih..heh..

felt something strange when i woke up this morning..hada a chest pain..weird..never had one though..felt like my heart was gripped and torn apart..heh..nolah..joking only..tapi chest pain tu betul aa..hmm..terhempap sumthing aku rasa..dah tak sakit dah..ok jek kot..

haii..ptg nih men basket lagik..tak tau aa..rasa cam dah terer abes dah..shoot asik masuk jer..hoho...takpe2 ilek2 tak baik riak2..hehe..nuthin much happened today..or yesterday for that matter..semalam tengok charlie lagik..heh...nak tengok wedding crashers rasa not worth it la plak..huhu..hmm..makan semalam best aa kot..hoho..dah lama beb tak makan sambal belacan..feveret tuh..waaa..hmm..

anyway..ingat nak stadi balik japanese aku aa..dah lama tinggal nih..tadik nak tulih ayat pon susah dalam jepon..waaa..sedey aa camni..rasa susah la plak nak dapat A jepun nih...hmm..camana aa..hehe..sampai sini jek kot..oo..blom2..satu agi..

tadik tengok final AF 3 kat bilik zul..what i can say and it's my opinion..tak sebest AF 2..seriusly..tapi lawak dia tiptop aa..hoho..

akhir kate...

watashi wa anata ga totemo daisuki, demo anata wa watashi ga suki shiranai...hehe..ntah betul ke tidak..hoho

~nuff said~

apsal asyik sangat?..AF je pon..

dipetik dari Utusan Malaysia 5 ogos..agaknya..

Bunga api di Felda Taib Andak jika Mawi juara
JOHOR BAHRU 4 Ogos - Pancaran bunga api untuk pertama kalinya akan menerangi ruang udara kawasan perkampungan Felda Taib Andak, Kulai jika Asmawi Ani atau Mawi menjuarai konsert akhir Akademi Fantasia 3 (AF3) di Stadium Melawati, Shah Alam Sabtu ini.
Ahli Dewan Undangan Negeri Kawasan Bukit Permai, Zainal Abidin Jidin berkata, pertunjukan bunga api itu merupakan antara program serta merta yang dirancang bagi meraikan kemenangan anak peneroka Felda Taib Andak itu nanti.
Malah beliau berkata, pihaknya juga merancang untuk mengaktif dan mengembangkan semula aktiviti nasyid, marhaban dan berzanji yang sedia ada di kawasan berkenaan.
``Sebagai pemimpin masyarakat, kami akan menggunakan pengaruh populariti Mawi sebagai agenda untuk membentuk moral dan kegiatan sosial secara lebih berfaedah,'' katanya ketika dihubungi di sini hari ini.
Menurutnya, pengaruh Mawi sebagai anak muda yang mencintai dan cemerlang dalam tilawah al-Quran, nasyid, berzanji dan marhaban serta menjadi finalis paling popular dalam konsert AF3 wajar dimanfaatkan untuk membentuk moral baik golongan belia.
Sambil berharap Mawi akan menang pada konsert akhir nanti, Zainal Abidin meminta seluruh peminat dan penyokong setianya memberi undi kepada anak Felda itu bagi membolehkannya muncul sebagai juara.
Kejayaan Mawi mara hingga ke peringkat akhir pertandingan itu menyebabkan pelbagai pihak turut berasa bangga dengan kemampuannya dan masyarakat Felda Taib Andak memberi sokongan penuh kepadanya.
Malah Majlis Perbandaran Kulai (MPKu) juga akan memasang skrin besar di Felda Taib Andak untuk membolehkan peneroka di kampung itu menyaksikan persembahan Mawi.

ok aa..aku ngaku aa dulu aku pon tengok AF 2..kenal gak aa ramai org..so aku bukan nak condem ke apa sebab aku tau kalo aku kondem org cam aku kondem diri aku sendiri aa sebab aku pon layan gak AF..

but..apsal nak sampai berbunga api nih?..huhu..nak kata aku jeles ada aa jugak..aku balik kampung takde pon org pasang bunga api utk aku..harharhar..tapi tu aa..benda remeh je ni beb..nak sampai berbunga api..so he wins the tournament so what..good for him la kan..bersyukur buat doa selamat dah aa..don't go overboard..org US ada gak die hard fan american idol ke survivor ke apa ke..tapi takde aa sampai buat bakar bunga api kalo idola diorg menang...huhu..ntah la..negara maju 202?..bole jek kot..ubah sket aa perangai tu dulu baru aa negara maju 2020...ok?..

Autumn is knocking on the door..

yes people..it's already close to Autumn ( or Fall to all the US folks..heh)..gosh..and i didn't know what i did this summer..argghh!!...well at least i've gotten a B for themodynamics...that's a relief..but i got a B for my Linear algebra..hmm..should have gotten an A for both but getting B is better than getting a C or fail right?

damn, there's only three weeks left until fall semester starts..i think i'm not ready for it yet. well, i'm always not ready for anything, if you know what i'm talking about..some of you do..heh..can't seem to visualize my future though..i'm graduating in two years-ish and i still don't know what i'll do when i've gone back home..will i get married?..can i get a job? will i be successful..all these questions and i don't have an answer for any one of them.

went to Stan's barbeque yesterday..was one of the earliest people too..hehe. just woke up early by chance. if it was any other day than yesterday i think i would be still sleeping soundly until 1 p.m. you can say it's kind of a miricle for me to be up and active at 11 a.m...hahaha.

just bought a new pair of shoes..the pair that i love the most is already worn out..still can wear them though..but not to play basketball..bought these shoes just to play basketball and it costs me a hundred smackers too. i really shoud control my spending, but to be honest..i don't know how..heh

already 5.30 and i'm still awake. wth. don't know why i can't sleep. been like this since midwest i think..don't know why though..sigh..have to recalibrate my bio clock...don't want to be late for class in fall now would we? ( like i'm not always late :p)

~nuff said~