ngaa..minggu paling havoc dalam semester nih..

adeh..pening nyer kepala..arghhh..dammit aa...aku tensen aa minggu nih..byk benda kena buat tapi cam takde masa la plak nak buat sumer..

ari nih tadik dengan malunyer and for the first time hp aku bunyi dalam klas..dammit..dah aa dalam klas jepon..dah aa lagu Hana..arghhh...malu giler syial...dah aa tak tau nombor sape..sape weih call aku kol 2.36 ptg tadik baik ngaku weih..siot giler..lupa plak nak vibrate phone tadik..adeh..tp takpe..dapat gak pujian2 sket tadik..hahahaha...nice ring tone..har har har...tengok aa sape edit..mesti aa nice..harharhar..dah2 aku bz..tak tau nak tulih apa..keje2..arghhh

hoi hoi

pejam celik dah lagi seminggu jer class..pastu final aa..ngaaa..gilak aa dah nak finals dah..rasa cam tak belaja apa2 pon..hohoho..

ok semalam tetiba plak terasa cam nak tengok berat badan sendiri berapa..hahaha...tengok2 uik..79? bior betul..hahaha..bagi aku tu kira dah kuruih aa tuh..before this tengok 85..turun berapa kilo tu beb..byk tuh turun..gilak aa..hebet2..anyway..sekarang nih aku tengah kemaruk ngan hp baru aku...Motorola SLVR L7 beb..tak main aa L6..bosan..(ilek dolah..hahaha) nanti nak carik screen protector aa..takut oo kalo calar..sayang oo..haha..tak lama nih..sekejap jer..nanti calar aa..hahaha..tapi aku rasa aa..nih aa phone the first and the last yg akan aku beli..kalo phone tak rosak tetiba aa in the near future..adeh..aku dah tak reti nak tulih apa..project 314 nih bukan main punya pening kepala di buatnyer...ngaaaa..siot aa..cepat aa weih cuti..aku dah tak tahan dah nih..adehhh..

yosh..building 1, 2 or 3?

tup tap tup tap tinggal berapa minggu jek lagik finals nak stat..adeh..penin aa kepala eden camni..khamis nih kena pilih building gak..tak kisah aa dapat mana janji kat NRV building 1, 2 or 3..senang sket..takyah susah2 pindah barang nanti..

ari nih exam stat kol 930..lepas exam econ dah down dah..pastu exam math plak kol 1030..down lagi..adeh..berterabur benda aku menghafal pagi tadik..time econ ingat la benda2 pasal math..time math plak..baru dia nak kuar benda2 pasal econ..haiii..memory management tak betul langsung...hahaha..tak kisah aa..janji sem nih takde aa seteruk sem yg aku dapat fizik F tu..hopefully aa..kalo teruk gak terpaksa aa kot repeat satu klas ke..dua klas ke..ngaaa..tanak..kalo camtu baik aku extend..hahaha..malas gak sebenornyer nak graduate awal2 nih..lepak2 aa dulu..dang terasa bosan malam nih..takde hw due besok..tapi malas nak buat hw due rabu plak..haha..mmg camni ler aku rasa sampai ke tua..benda due besok ari nih baru terkial2 nak buat..

a statement that will clear it once and for all..

okeh..first things first...i'm suppose to be studying for my 2 exams tomorrow..econ stadi dah..nak stadi math 304 jek nih..but to all who is reading my blog..i just want to make one thing clear..

i'm not interested anymore ok? all the things that went on the past two weeks was just matters of my assignments n homeworks that is really getting on my nerves..i don't know what you all heard and i don't care aaa if my face is like muka orang nak terjun bangunan kan? but that is just how my face looks like all the time!!! hahaha..well it's true..

it's true i've been a little depressed lately but it's strictly about my studies..2 days without sleep doing programming for my 314 class and just did only 2 out of 3 questions? anyone would be disappointed..well..i don't know about you guys aa but i am disappointed at least..and with all the things about my mom saying "i'm worried about you" all the time is not helping me either..and the fact that i haven't slept on my beloved couch for a week adds up to my behavior lately...

but put that all aside...i'm really thankful that i have frens that care about me so much aa kan? seriously thanks for everything..but i'm ok..no hard feelings, terasa cam nak bunuh diri ke apa ke tadak..all is well in the minds of bobby..i'm still cheerful..but skang nih cam dah kurang sket aa kot..takde aa cam dulu..asik bz jer skang nih..hoho..too many assignments man...nak main game skang pon dah kena pikir 2,3 kali..tapi last2 aku main jugak..haha

so..lastly before i go into studying mode..just want to say a couple of things..
1) i am a guy who honors friendship above anything else..because in my opinion..frens are forever

2) i'm not going to make a girl cry..(kalo ada pon by accident)

3) i will do everything in my power to make everyone around me happy even if it takes my happiness away..because the sight of seeing an unhappy friend to me, is worse than me feeling unhappy..

so..with all the statements above..i hope you guys know why i did the things i did..and why i didn't do the things that some guys told me i should..that's just me..some will say i'm just too nice..what can i do about it..it's just how i was raised up to be...

so there you have it..i am who i am..huhu..okeh..nak stadi math 304..exam2..

arigatoo gozaimasu

international dinner best..walopon muka aku ngan jet kena lindung ngan momon n the guitar geng but still best....hohoho

and thanks a lot guys...eventhough sebenornyer it's not necessary but it still light up my day..hehehe

200th post..

another thursday, another class i didn't go to...seems like i don't have the drive to go to that class anymore...frankly, i judt don't have the drive to do anything anymore..seems like all the things i do just ends up hurting me more...i just don't care about anything anymore..because when i care about something when it's gone it's gonna hurt..i just can't take it anymore...i have lost a lot of things, people, friends, family for the past 22 years and i just can't take it anymore..i can't cope with it..everyday the frustration just keeps piling up until i am drowned by it...when i try to calm my mind and shut my self from everything else...i can't do it and "some" people despise it...but when i try to be thoughtful and friendly, i'm totally ignored..i just can't take it anymore...everything here is a big fat lie...the biggest scale lie that i have ever seen.. people hating each other then tomorrow you'll see them together like best of friends..hehe...what kind of world am i living in? i hate this life of mine..because i have ideals..but i can't live up to them..because i'm not strong enough? yes, that's one way to put it...who is strong enough? heh..here i am staring into a black deep abyss with no bottom. the way i'm feeling right now, the abyss is looking really tempting right now...maybe i'll just jump in and never come out..then everyone will be happy...including me..

genki?

weekend yg tak productive langsung...thought that i could get some rest from the hectic week..but nooo..there will be something that spoils the mood..never fails aa every weekend kan..but what can you do in a situation like this? absolutely nothing aa kan..everyone including myself need to act their own age aa once in a while...suck it up and move on laa..to some people this task is not that easy..but that's life aa kan..who says life is gonna be easy...

responsibility is something that we all have..but pandai2 aa prioritize the important and the not so important things...there will be times when we make mistakes in prioritizing our responsibilities..once or twice ok aa..but after the third time is just too much man..believe me if you can't learn to prioritize now..you'll be lost in the real world..skarang nih bole aa..member ramai, senang nak mintak tulun..nanti dah tua sok..believe me..you'll be all alone..so pandai2 aa jaga diri ok? to all the people who's reading this blog pesan2 aa member...aku dah serik dah menghantar member balik tanpa degree...if you have a problem or can't decide on something..jgn aa tetiba jadik pemalu tahap gaban plak..tanya2 aa..everyone need guidance..from above tu mmg mesti..tapi tanpa usaha guidance tu takkan datang sendiri...usaha aa sket..mmg aa fun duduk US nih..fun2 pon kena ingat jugak..the money we are using the money of our people..and don't give me bullshit like parents aku bayar gak so kira cam duit parents aku..come on...berapa percent sangat parents ko bayo? study must be the first thing on your mind everyday you wake up..aku pon bukan selalu pikir camtu..but..i'm trying my best aa to think like that..just sit back and think about it.............what is your priority? fun? study? think about it yourself....and whatever that makes you happy...go for it...generasi akan datang beb..2020..what does the future holds nobody knows...but, we can mold it ..not to be perfect...but just nice...

kan aku dah kate..mesti ramai nyer yg berkata2..

satu lagi..malas mmg aa bukan alasan yg munasabah aku tau...sesape yg ada kat case nih pon tau sebab sumer org kat sini bijak pandai bukan bodo tongong..tapi kan...takde korang terasa diorg nih tak gi sebab technicality ker? contoh aa kan..dah sound dah jom tunggu bilikr asyid bawak tiket skali..apa balasan yg aku terima? aa aku tak pegi aa bob tiket aku dah bagi kat feezul? if you were in my position aa kan apa perasaaan ko kalo ko dah siap2 nak pegi kan tetiba org yg pegang tiket cakap camtu kat ko?

korang nih pon satu...nak sound2 pon sound aa..tapi berpada2 aa sket..didn't mean to hurt anyone konon..did not mean to hurt takyah aa tulis camtu..better still takyah tulis did not meant to hurt part tuh..sebab mmg sakitkan hati pon benda yg ko tulih tu..sound tuh sound aa kan aku no hal jer..tapi ada tak you all take ur time dulu sebelum korang post benda nih sumer sound2 membuta tuli aku ngan rasyid..ye2 aku tau aku ngan rasyid kena..ada korang amik masa tanya asal tak pegi? korang sumer assume jer malas..standard aa melayu..assume membuta tuli..takde sorang pon tanya bob asal semalam ko tak gi? mmg takde niat nak tau pon..niat korang satu jer "haa..time camni aa best burn org"..pls aa..try tanya org tuh dulu before membuta tuli sound2..panas hati tau tak panas hati...tapi tak kisah aa full responsibility aku amik..aku bayar tiket no hal..so just drop it motherfuckers..aku dah fed up dah..lantak korang aa..

standard aa..

standard lepas nih byklah mulut2 yg berkata2......

pukul 3 pagi..

arghh..kul 3 pagi..tak leh tido..terasa bersalah plak tak gi concert tadik..ok aa..bayar aa duit tuh salah aku gak..malas nak tuduh sape2..mmg salah aku..walopon tiket ntah sape pegang..salah aku la jugak..aa sape pegang? boden.aa cantik sangat la tu kan..call bilik takde org angkat..aku tinggal status aku kat bilik rasyid tunggu ko je nih jom aa gerak sesama..pastu punya pandai gi msg aku kat pc aku..dah aa msg weih aku tak pegi tiket aku dah bagi kat feezul..abes tuh tiket aku ko buat apa? buang dalam longkang? aku dah terang2 tulih situ "i'm not here" kat bilik rasyid..tak paham bahasa ker..aku dah try aa weih..aku dah try dah nak masak ngan perangai ko nih..tapi serius aa..takyah aa lurus sangat..aku dah try carik ko..merata2 siot..lepas semayang jumaat aku takleh lengah2 kelas jepon..lepas klas jepon aku call bilik 3-4 kali tak angkat..aku letak status MSN..aku shout kat camar..aku dah kate dah aku kat bilik rasyid asal ramai org tak paham aa ngan status aku tuh? nak jugak msg2 aku punya msn..aku biar jer bukak kalu2 mak aku nak msg ke..kakak aku ke..bole aku baca apa diorg nak..yg korang nih kenal kan rasyid sape..msg aa rasyid..tak pon pok cik ker..kalo nak carik aku..dah terang2 dah tulis..beso2 lagi aku kat bilik rasyid..susah sangat nak paham ke? haa? hangin aa nih..korang sumer ingat akuk tanak pegi ke? nak aa pegi..aku pon takde aa hati busuk sampai camtu skali org dah bagi tiket free aku tanak pegi..aku dah siap dah pakai lawa2 sumer..dah tiket nyer takde..ko nak suruh aku pegi camtu jek? kang jadik cam nash stan belikan tiket lagi satu..lagi aa..takpe aa biar je aa aku bayar tiket tuh..mmg salah aku..my responsibility..tapi responsibility aku pon..kena aa org lain pon tolong jugak..kan? hidup tolong menolong weih..aku tengah tensen nih..bukan pasal aku kena bayar duit tiket tuh..come on aa..mmg aku nak pegi weih..mmg aa rasa kat hati macam tanak pegi..tapi org dah bagi tiket..aku pegi nyer..tapi dah takde tiket dalam tangan nak buat camana...

ya allah hangin nyer badan..arghh..