letting off some steam...

i don't know what came over me to write this blog today. i don't really know. got a call from my mom this evening. she was letting off some steam because my brothers did a good job of not making her happy. now i have to be lectured not to be like them and love her and cherish her like the "perfect" son that she wants me to be. the thing is i know that i am not perfect and i just hate it when someone asks me to be. moreover she is my mom. then i have to listen to her for half an hour about how her sons and daughters doesn't love her anymore and i know that that is far from the truth. we do love her. my brothers and sisters really do love her. but with the hectic lifestyle that we siblings have because my siblings are successful thanks to mom's lecturing us every other day, they will tend to forget occasionally to have a nice chat with her. and here i am being her son and lending an ear to all her problems when i have problems of my own. sometimes i just crack under pressure and just stare blankly to the ceiling doing nothing. i just don't know what to do. she is the world to me. but i really don't know what to say to her when she asks me what to do. how am i supposed to say to a woman who had struggled alone to raise 5..well..not 5 yet..4..4 successful human beings and succeeded, how to deal with her problems? furthermore, when i try to give suggestions, it backfires and i get a heavy lecture on how to make a good opinion and when i don't give one, i am given a lecture on how i should have a stand. it's driving me nuts. i don't know what to say anymore, i don't know what to do anymore, and i don't know how to handle this but i have to. they are my family and their problems are my problems. i want to help but sometimes i just feel that my opinions are not that important to them because i have not tasted the bitterness of the "real world" yet.

and seriously, sometimes i just want to forget about everything and give a nice, long top of my lungs scream. you know to let off some steam. but hey, i am in a residential hall so i can't scream on top of my lungs because it could make others in the residential hall uncomfortable. that is why i am writing this blog. to let off some steam. not much...but it helps....sometimes..

Hepi Valentine's Day...again...

well, to all you couples out there...Happy Valentine's day!! Every year couples will get busy today with going to fancy restaurants having dinner, chocolate and flower giving and all the lovely things that couples do on valentine's day. don't get the wrong impression about what i'm going to write here couples. I'm not saying that it's bad to do all the things that you do on valentine's day and i'm not someone that hates valentine's day. But, really, was it worth it? I know, this is the only day that you guys can be romantic and see other couples go around with the girl wrapping her arms around her man and the guy trying not to get an e*^&*%^n (just kidding guys). And after all is said and done on February the 14th. the girls will get into a group of girlfrens and boast about how their man was a romantic guy on valentine's day. chatting about how her boyfren got her the loveliest present that a girl could ever wanted and how romantic the poem that he read to her under the moonlight and all the lovely stuff. and the girlfrens will say..awww, that's so sweet or awww, you are such a lucky girl...my boyfriend would never do that for me.
you want to know what the guys will chat about on february the 15th after valentine's day is finished? they'll probably compare how much they spent on valentine's day for their girlfrens and make jokes about the guy who spends the most. "how much? dude, that's not right" or "dude you could buy a plasma with that kind of money man!!" or "dinner at a fancy restaurant? hell, just cook it yourself. they'll think it's romantic"...or "i just downloaded the poem from the internet. works like a charm.." Most guys and i'm saying MOST ladies not ALL..don't get psycho on me for this one...thinks valentine's day as a day of sacrifice...football game?...no...if you know what's good for you, you'll tivo it...blizzard? better have your warmest coat ready cause your eating out in this ungodly weather...you forgot? hell no, don't ever say that...you are better off saying your long lost father called and he just had that day to spend time with you...ladies are crazy for valentine's day....the least you have to do on that day is give your girl heart shaped box full of chocolates...that's the LEAST you could do...if you could do more...good..then your giving your girlfriend something to make her friends jealous at your relationship and will make another guy's life miserable for a whole year until next valentine's day when he tries to outclass you...
hmm..maybe i do hate valentine's day...all the cuddling and love spreading around just gives me goosebumps...but, honestly...i don't know the feeling of what you guys see in valentine's day and why is it special....maybe it's because i'm single..who knows...but really...I don't see it...what else do you want to prove? you love the girl, she loves you back and boom that's that..does valentine's day proves anything? personally, i think valentine's day is great when you want to tell someone that you like him/her...then you'll have your anniversary with valentine's day on the same day...yayy!! save a little bit of pocket money...better yet..find a girl whose birthday is on february the 14th and confess to her on her birthday and valentine's day...bamm!! 3 in 1!! imagine how much money you'll save...hahaha...

woww...this post really looks like i hate valentine's day...hahaha...just joking guys...you guys do what you think is best...and for some girls out there appreciate what the guys are doing for you...i've seen some girls that are not appreciative to the things that their boyfriends do for them...and it breaks my heart seeing guys going through that...makes me want to be single for a long time...hell, who am i kidding...with this declining hair line (runs in the family), i think i'll be single until i make a lot of money which I don't know when or how...

well, to all couples out there hepi valentine's day...and remember..don't show your love only on valentine's day...show it all year round...and to the singles out there..keep searching guys...you'll bound to meet that special someone someday...and girls..there's a single 23 year old guy with a declining hairline looking for his soulmate...hahahaha...peace..

colts win!!

tak sokong colts pon sebenornyer, diorg dah menang sokong ler jugak last2...team aku sokong sumer dah kalah dah..dammit..anyway..aku dah agak dah semester nih tahap production aku menurun sebab amik sket class..nih tensen nih..time amik byk class...melampau plak berat dia..tapi ok jer...time amik sikit class mmg tak byk keje pon tapi bapak malas and tak productive nyer aku...adeh camana nih...kena productive weih..last semester of your university life man..dah aa senior project pon semester nih..kamon2..bole2..adeh...camana la bole jadi camni...kena rajin sket nih..bukan sket..kena rajin byk nih...haii...tengok ler camana kengkawan...harapan aku tengah tinggi nih nak 4 flat semester nih..ntah ler..aku tak penah pon 4 flat..paling power pon 3.50..tu pon first semester jek..har har har...takpe2..bole2..when there is a will there is a way...tapi cam lemah jer will skarang nih..arghhh