what a strange dream...

i had the most bizarre dream last night...it was like one of those dreams when you don't know you're awake or still sleeping...it felt so real to me...i hope it was not...it's a cruel dream...i didn't deserve to be treated that way (in the dream of course..)...damn...the dream is carved in my head man...can't forget it...it was crystal clear...i still remember the lies, deceits, blackmail, backstabbing...i want to write it down but...it's kinda personal..so..i think i shouldn't...it could hurt someone's feelings...please let it be as it is....a dream...one that is just a prank that my mind made when i'm sleeping...please...

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Aiya....lembik aa..

why does Arsenal FC hates Man Utd FC so much?...we don't know...i don't even remember how the feud really started...but one thing is for sure, Man Utd is not the agressor in the feud...we just played football the way that we used to play for a long time...we upheld the tradition of the red devils...that's why we won 8 out of ten seasons in a row and one european championship...we never brag about that...well we do brag about it..but just for the post season of 1999...after that it was back to playing football as usual...all this mumbo jumbo of winning 49 games in a row..oppss...no...no...'undefeated' in 49 games in a row is just not worth all the credit..did they win the league for 8 seasons out of 10?..no...did they ever reached the final of europeans champions league?...no...did they ever taste the sweet victory of winning the treble?...no...so why brag undefeated in 49 games?....seriously...brag about it after you win yourself some european silverware...oh..before i forget...

'I received more blows in that match than I have ever done in the Spanish League and I finished on the ground covered in bruises.' - Jose Reyes

if you can't take the harshness of english premier league, do yourself a favor and go back to spain...

no offence...just an opinion...

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ayak!!..blog jiwang??

I had received a lot of comments about my blog recently ( from friends, etc. bla bla) that my blog is too romantic a.k.a 'jiwang'....it's not jiwang...it's just...i don't know...i just like to write stuff...so when i can't find stuff to write about, i post something a little bit romantic or sentimental....it's just makes my blog look nice...to some people...not all...that's why this blog's title is life and what i get from it....anything i get from life i trash it here...and i usually get love...from my frens, suitemates, brothers and sisters....so i write and post something about love....sometimes i hate a certain thing or person...i write things about hate and despair....that's the gist of it...this blog is about what I get in life....not what i want from it. because life could give you anything without notice....it could be fair, cruel, nice, thoughtful. life could give you things you wanted or things you hate...you just have to accept it with arms wide open...that's what i'm doing and i don't regret it.

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apa nak tulih ekk?

what do i want to write in this blog today?...i have no idea...can't sleep, can't study...arghhh!!!...tension...got a japanese quiz tomorrow....and i think i want to withdraw from my calculus 3 class....thank you Mr Kovac for the 2 weeks you tortured me in class....you're a nice guy...but i guess i just can't cope with the way you're teaching...this semester just gets worse by the day...where were the times when i'm just a happy go lucky guy....wait....i'm still a happy go lucky guy....bah...i hate this semester!!!!

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lelaki idaman hawa?..mana nak dapat??

ni ihsan daripada paman reheadjo a.k.a asar...aku baca pon tergelak2 aku..tapi mmg betul pon..susah skarang nak cari lelaki yang bole memenuhi kehendak wanita dan vice versa..

Aku pernah terfikir....aku sendiri masih musykil... Rata2 biodata yang tak rata dari kaum hawa semuanya mesti ada ayat2 sebegini:
1). Calon suami yang tidak merokok.
2). Calon suami yang bersembahyang, taat pada perintah Allah
3). Penyayang, Penyabar
4). Suka Berterus terang.
5). Romantik
6). TIdak mempermainkan Kaum Hawa
7). Berbudi Bahasa
8). Kelakar

hakikatnya....
1). Purata 9 daripada 10 lelaki adalah perokok,
-camner la korang nak carik yang tak merokok... kekadang tu dia tak merokok depan korang...tapi belakang
2). Yup, Sembahyang @ Solat...
- yang diwajibkan ada 5, tapi alahai...kadang2 dapat 3 pun dah besar rahmat dah..wallahualam
3). Penyayang & Penyabor??
-mungkin masa bercinta & masa tengah carik jodoh jer kot...riso lepas kawin jadik Penerajang & Penampor jerk..
4). Lelaki memang suka berterus terang...
-takde gelap2 punya...omputih kata straight 2 the point...melayu kata, sound tepat...
5). Romantik?
-apa definisi romantik yang sebenarnya? cari dalam kamus tengok - camner ciri2 lelaki romantik...sesapa leh huraikan??
6). Kaum lelaki memang tidak pernah sesekali mempermainkan kaum Hawa.. never... ever... forever... hakikat yang berlaku sekarang ni...kaum lelaki la yang banyak kena main dengan kaum Hawa...lelaki kalau dia kata dia sayang, dia cinta.... arus elektrik pun tak dapat hanyutkan dia....but ingat....itu kalau dia kata dia sayang or cinta jerk
7). Berbudi Bahasa ni kena tengok dengan attitude seseorang tu..kalau cara dia cakap dengan kita pun macam hampeh, takkan la dia tak hampeh depan mak bapak kita esok. nak yang betul berbudi?? cari la yang tak hampeh...
8). Kelakar....nampak gaya kaum lelaki kena langgan majalah ujang ngan apo? la...supaya ada modal time dating nanti...memang best dapat pasangan yang kelakar...tapi kalau sebijik macam Mr. Bean...rasanya mak bapak kita pun malu nak ngaku menantu kan..kan...kan ?

apa yang kaum hawa tulis semua tu...dapat ker korang cari yang ada kesemua ciri tu....kalau dapat...berapa lama?? masihkah ada lelaki sedemikian?? takut2 kalau dah pupus jerk... carilah yang berkenan dihati...buat Solat Istikharah bila nak buat pilihan hidup..soal masa depan bukan mainan... jangan carik yang kemas berkemeja tapi rupa2 kerjanya Peragut, Penagih, Penipu dan semua P yang dikategorikan sebagai Penjenayah... Mana yang bersifat sementara masih ada peluang kita mengubahnya, mana yang kekal doakanlah moga Allah beri petunjuk dan hidayah padanya. Jangan kita terlalu memilih mengikut kehendak kita.... Jodoh & Pertemuan ketentuan Allah semuanya...Amin

just an advice..

just finished reading a friend's blog....talking about notes in class and the unhealthy habit of skipping class(not saying that i don't skip...i'm human too you know...)...well..it's true that some classes are easy to score but hard to comprehend...i hate those kind of classes...like my 233 class...if it was up to me, i would just study my butts off..but considering that i have 4 other subjects to attend to....i came here to grasp an understanding of what makes universities abroad so damn special than our universities at home..but...i haven't seen anything unusually different...so i decided it was all in the method of the lecturers...i loved some lecturers..chris butler for example, good man...understand everything that he taught...but his exams are so damn difficult...well, at least i could be at ease because i understand the stuff...where's the pride in getting a a perfect score in an exam that you don't know anything about?...(hrmmm, my 233 exam...sigh..)...well...we all make choices....choose..heh

no subject

There was once this guy who is very much in love
with his girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000
pieces
of paper cranes as a gift to his girl.
Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his
company, his future
doesn't seem too bright, they
were very happy together.
Until one day, his girl told him she was going to
Paris and will never come back.
She also told him that she cannot visualise any
future for the both of them, so they went their own
ways there and then... Heartbroken, the guy
agreed. But when he regained his confidence, he
worked hard day and night, slogging his body and
mind just to make something out of himself.
Finally with all the hard work and the help of
friends,
this guy had set up his own company ...
You never fail until you stop trying.
One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw
an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain
walking to some destination. Even with the
umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him
long to realize they were his girl's parents. With a
heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly
beside
the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury
sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't
the
same any more; he had his own company, car,
condo, etc. He made it! What he saw next
confused him, the couple was walking towards
a cemetery, and so he got out of his car and
followed...and he saw his girl, a photograph of
her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her
tombstone and he saw his paper cranes right
beside her... Her parents saw him. He asked
them why this had happened. They explained,
she did not leave for France at all. She was ill
with cancer.
She had believed that he will make it someday,
but she did not want to be his obstacle... therefore
she had chosen to leave him. Just because
someone doesn't love you the way you want them
to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they
have. She had wanted her parents to put his
paper cranes beside her, because, if the day
comes when fate brings him to her again...he can
take some of those back with him...
Once you have loved, you will always love. For
what's in your mind may escape but what's in your
heart will remain forever. The guy just wept...
The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting
right beside her knowing you can't have her, see
her or be with her ever again.........hope you
understand.
Find time to realize that there is one person who
means so much to you, for you might wake up
one morning losing that person who you thought
meant nothing to you... =)

love...again?

1) Don't turn your back to love when it's
already in front of you.
Don't drive it away from you, because if you do,
someday, you'll think
again, why you let love flew when it was there
next to you.

2) In Love, think things first over if you're
sure about how you feel.Don't fall too hard
not
knowing where you will stand, 'coz it will hurt
real bad if things don't go the way you want
them
to be.

3) It's an irony to know that it takes hours for
someone to have guts to say "hi" to the one
he likes, days to admire,weeks to miss the
person,
months to love, but just a blink of an eye to
say goodbye...

4) Go for the person who loves you. It is not
wrong to love someone
who belongs to someone else, but it is much
better to love someone who could also love
you in return.

5) Love isn't something we hold, it is
something we set free. It's not something we
just do, but....
it's something we don't imagine to be. Lastly,
it's not something we choose, it chooses us..

6) The scariest thing about falling in love is
getting hurt. The scariest thing about getting
hurt is not being able to love again. The
scariest thing about not loving again is being
alone forever.

nuff said.....

Ramadhan is here!!

uish...it's Ramadhan already!!...hehe..just started the fasting month today..not much happened though....and i just finished all my midterm exams today...yay!!...that's a relief...not that i scored on all of them...that's another blog...this blog is just to express how much i am looking forward to this fall break..even though i have no plans whatsoever for these 4 days...just stay in my room and play games i think...if someone wants to hang out..that's fine too...go watch a movie maybe...but strictly..i just want to sleep all weekend..it's been a tiring week...didn't get much sleep...this is my only chance to catch up on my sleep..hehe...really want to play basketball this weekend..but i don't know if i could play all out..because of the fasting month and all..well..that's all for know...calos..

a puro dolor

As I was studying my ass off...i stumbled upon a song that i haven't heard in months...i liked this song once, but stopped hearing to it because it brings back memories that was better left forgotten..

"A Puro Dolor"(purest of pain)

Perdona si te estoy llamando en este momento
Pero me hacia falta escuchar de nuevo
Aunque sea un instante tu respiracion

Disculpa se que estoy violando
Nuestro juramento
Se que estas con alguien, que no es el momento
Pero hay algo urgente que decirte este hoy

Estoy muriendo, muriendo por verte
Agonizando muy lento y muy fuerte

Vida, devuelveme mis fantasias
Mis ganas de vivir la vida
Devuelveme el aire...

Carino mio, sin ti yo me siento vacio
Las tardes son un laberinto
Y las noches me saben
A puro dolor...

Quisiera decirte que hoy estoy de maravilla
Que no me ha afectado lo de tu partida
Pero con un dedo no se tapa el sol

Estoy muriendo, muriendo por verte...

ok..i know that it's hard to understand spanish...but i liked the spanish version more than the english one

5 xm and 1 lab = perfect week??

yeah..i always write these words down like i want sympathy from other people..heh..yeah right...i have 5 xm's..damn...well...just have to study my ass off now wouldn't i?...

What is going on??

apa la nak jadi....day after day it fells like it's all breaking apart...every passing day....i don't know why...feuding here...a little bit of envy there and jealousy between each other....why can't we just get along...i just don't get it...why do we have to fight against each other for things that are not worth it?...we all have problems and differences with other people.....but don't just keep it inside or expressing your problems to people that could not do anything.....that's just not right....i don't like what i'm seeing here and i know some of you who are reading this also do not like this....where were the friendly gestures that we usually make when we bump into each other?...where were the times when everyone was laughing playing soccer or basketball and never had the pressure of a teammate scolding all your faults?....this is not right...we used to be a team....used to help one another....not fight against each other....i'd rather have a "family" here...not some guys and girls who just came from the same country as i am and study here together....where was our "family"?...i know how it feels to have a broken family...you all think i don't?...well...i do.....for 8 damn fucking years...i don't want it to happen here....i really don't....trust me..it's horrible....we are here not just to study and get good grades...we could do that in Malaysia...so please...don't go talking foolish stuff behind a person's back or backstabbing or blaming others before knowing the truth or anything of that nature...i know it's fun but it's not worth it....in the end, it will come back to you...i know i'm not a saint here...but i'm just giving a reminder...it's you who decide...not me...i've decided a long time ago and i'm hanging on to it...

guys are crybabies....WHAT????!!

i could stop staring at the monitor of my laptop when this kind of discussion went up in the bulletin board of friendster....guys...likes to cry??....well...there are some truth to it...but we don't cry outloud like you gurls do it...we cry in our hearts..hehe...just joking gurls...anyway, guys also cry..i don't deny that but likes to cry?...l don't think so...that job is better left to the pompuan mengada2 type...we don't like to cry...it ruins our image...when we do cry, we don't show it to you girls now do we?...we're a proud bunch...just like a friend of mine always say....if there is a similarity between an animal's and human's personalities.....then i would say men are like dogs and women are like cats...i agree with her....men are honorable, loyal and always handle things himself...woman for that matter likes the attention, elegant and always want to feel appreciated..although she didn't do anything that would welcome recognition....just like cats...where am i going with this?...i don't know but i just want to prove a point that guys don't like to cry...please...just don't post a thing like that...it's ruining the image of men everywhere....hehehehe...

EECS 233

shit...just wanna skip this class today...i'm really not in the mood...