Kampfer

dah final month of 2009...kuang kuang kuang. gaji tak masuk lagi..waaaa..aku dah kering dah nih..nak mai ofis pon duit cukup2 jer nak bayar tol duke untuk 2 miniggu lagik..isk3. nak makan pon dah takde sen dah nih...kena mintak ihsan big bro..huhuhu. takpe2..nanti dah dpt gaji nanti ok aa. minggu nih cam tak bz sangat tapi sebenornyer byk gak project aku kena undertake nih. dalam 4 kot..ngaaaa..bole2 ganbatte kudasai iruhamu kun.

skang nih tengah gian men Dragon Age : Origins yg aku rasa akan mengambil masa yg agak lama utk aku complete quests dia sume. Baru pakai Elf mage je..belum human warrior ngan rogue lagi...elf rogue ngan warrior ada gak..dwarven rogue ngan warrior pon ada..ngaaa...so all in all ada 6 citer dalam satu game..yg satu ni pon aku dah terkial2 nak abeskan..al maklum ler..bz huhuhu..

dah bulan disember ni..mesti ramai org nak citer pasal azam tahun baru..huhuhu...aku dari form 5 punya azam tahun baru pon tak dan..ni plak nak buat azam baru lagik..takyah ler..gembira jer laa dah masuk tahun baru...

aku pon tak tau aa gaji aku ni naik ke tak tahun depan..bos kate naik tp kekadang rasa cam tak..huaaa..kalo tak naik camana aku nak survive kat kl nih..ngaaaaa...takpe2..kita tengok dulu camana situasi kita tahun depan..insya Allah semua akan ok kot..kalo tak ok, terpaksa aa aku berhijrah..kalo ok..ok ler...cam mak aku kate..aku nih perangai cam a contented old man..senang sangat puas hati..abeh tu nak wat camana...nak kate keje tak bergaji idak jugak..kekurangan duit tu ada aa tp takde aa sampai kena makan megi sebulan..ok lagi nih..nak bincang pasal future pon malas aa..pepatah kungfu panda ada mengatakan, " Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery, but Today is a gift. That's why it is called the present." jadi, jgn ler sebab nak kejar masa depan, masa kini korang tak hepi. "Jgn yg dikejar tak dapat yg dikendong berciciran" org melayu kate. Enjoy life while you can omputeh kate. huahuahua...dah2..melalut la plak.. Kuang Kuang Kuang....

Fairy Tail

adeh..dua minggu berturut2 weekend kena keje..weekend depan tak tau aa kena ke tak..rasa cam nak mintak cuti dari epeng..tak tau aa. bole kot. harap2 aa bole..nak cuti rabu n khamis time raya haji minggu depan..byk benda kena buat woo.. Lesen kete dah nak mati dah khamis ni..nak kena renew plak..pastu minggu depan raya aji kena balik kampung agi..pastu kena save duit plak..adeh..harap2 aa gaji dpt naik. rasa2 cam bole naik je dari appraisal ari tu tp..ntah aa..takleh nak komen pasal benda2 camni..

just got back from the curve tadi. ingat nak tengok wayang jennifers body..tp pikir2 balik..baik beli dvd..kalo tengok wayang mesti ada potong nyer..huhu. gi la jugak check2 apa game2 ps3 baru..Dragon Age ngan dragonball dah keluar. tp takde duit nak beli..mampu tgk ngan air liur meleleh je aa..hoho..

tup2 dah november dah..lagi sebulan lagi dah nak masuk 2010. dang..camana ni? aduii..ntah aa..lantak aa..tak tau dah nak pikir camana..

Nyan Koi!!

Adeh..dah lama betul yek tak update blog nih. Biasalah dah keje kan. Priorities tu dah tukaq. Kalau dulu time blaja blog nih priority utama sebab takde blog nih bleh jadi gilo eden dengan pancaroba university dulu. Skarang nih dah keje, keje le pulak harus diutamakan. Stress tu..stress la jugak...tp nak buat camana kan? keje ada dateline yg mahu dikejar. time blaja dulu homework antar antar le jugak tp ehem2..paham2 je ler..huhuhu.

Skang nih tengah sibuk buat projek yg nak siap cepat...so sume org tengah gelabah le nih...dia punya mandays dia patut ada le dalam sebulan dua..tp kena cut..so timeline dia skang dlm masa seminggu setengah kena siap..haa..tu yg sume org tengah gelabah macam org cirit birit carik jamban..kuikuikui...tp aku rasa mengikut pengalaman..bole je kot siap projek nih..insya Allah...tp kena bersengkang mata le pagi ptg siang malam..adeh..cam projek RoR ari tu ler..

bercakap pasal cirit birit nih...aku cirit birit weekend ari tuh..adeh..ntah apa ntah aku makan...perut aku takleh kena coffemate ke..coffemate tu expired ke..

skang nih tengah buat crossword projek..tak siap2 agi nih..kena siap by ahad...adeh.. bole kot..ganbatte kudasai ne iruhamu-kun..

Elric kyoudai(Elric Brothers)....

Only another week until raya...another week!! My last post was when we started ramadhan and fasting...cepatnyer masa berlalu..nee?

dah nak dekat raya pon..baju tak beli lagi...road tax kete tak renew lagi...kete tak servis lagi..umah tak kemas lagi..ngaaaa...sumer org tanya nak sampul duit raya tak? aku pon tanya balik nak buat apa? diorg pon tanya kehairanan ko tak bagi duit raya ke? dah keje dah...

pengumuman: MIMPI aa nak bagi duit raya tahun nih...hohoho..nak beli barang sendiri pon sengkek..nak bagi duit raya..tahun nih kalo bagi pon li posen jer sorang..hahahaha...kejam2..

dah2 kepala taktau nak tulih apa lagi dah..kalo post nih tahan sampai raya, Selamat Hari Raya dan Maaf Zahir Batin....0-0 mintak halal makan minum yer?

dah nak pose dah..

tuptaptuptap, lusa dah masuk bulan ramadhan..pose dah..pastu Raya, pastu New Year. huhuhu. Dah nak puasa nih terpikir plak nak buka apa aa mak takde? kalo mak ada ada ler mak masak lauk sket..nih mak kat Glasgow..waaa..dah aa duit tengah sengkek nih..takkan nak pasar ramadhan jer kot tiap2 ari..alamat buka megi je ler..isk3..giler sedey..

ni ada gambo time hazli(my cousin) kawin..tengok2 balik gambo nih..gemok jugak ler aku..ngaaa..dulu kat US aku kurus jer..takde ler cam lidi tapi bole tahan aa..hohoho..and ada satu gambo erfan tengah main air laut..standard omputeh tak penah nampak laut..jakun ler sket..hohohoho..

Ni plak latest gambo umah kat kampung...time raya nanti sunyi ler rumah nih..tp still open house aa cam raya2 sebelum tapi tuan rumah nyer beraya seberang jalan aa kat umah sedara..huhuhu
dah2..tu jer kot yg bleh tulih..nak balik awal..nak tulun brother amik kete kat workshop..kete ford coupe dia tu ler..adehh...

kurija..kurija..

huargghhh...baru ler ada time aku nak menaip sumthing kat sini..dah sebulan lebey dah tak update blog nih...sume disebabkan keje, malas, takde masa, etc. huhu.

adeh..penin kepala..balik umah kang tengok umah bersepah plak..semenjak mak takde nih standard aa org bujang duduk umah..huhu..tak lama lagi dah puasa dah. Pastu tuptup dah raya. This will be the first raya without my mum kat kampung sbb mak gi beraya kat UK ngan cucu kesayangan dia. cet..takde duit raya ler aku tahun nih..hohoho.

Weekend lepas company aku wat explorace kat zoo negara. Sampai kaki akuk dua2 belah cramp. 3 hari baru hilang sakit dia. tara guna punya organizer. Bagi clue giler susah. salah satu clue, "nama saya rambo, awek saya rambai cari ler saya". dammit. camana ler nak carik binatang nama rambo n rambai...dah ler tak bagitau jenis apa..adehhh...dah ler all the women in my team hyper plak ari tuh. ntah apa diorg minum pagi tu aku pon tak tau..lari sana lari sini....clue tak baca lagik dah stat lari..huhuhu..dah ler last checkpoint kena rendam muka dalam ulat. carik penutup botol...dari jauh nampak cam dah mati jer ulat tuh...pandang dekat perghh...mengeliut liut..aku dengan selamba dan takut benam muka dalam ulat..ada ler sekor dua masuk mulut..tp takde ler sampai tertelan..hoho..

aisey...bos sudah dtg buat rounds...ingat nak tulih lagik..huhu

Revenge of the Fallen!!!

Ngaaaa...transformers ari ni keluar!!! tapi tak gi tengok ari ni kot..besok rasa nyer gi tengok..harap2 ler RCM form nih tak banyak lagi dah bugs dia..kalo tak banyak besok bleh cuti...bleh tengok transformers di siang hari tatkala semua orang sedang bekerja..muahahahaha...

Kakak aku balik dari glasgow ari jumaat nih..kena gi amik plak kat KLIA kol 245 ptg plak tuh...burn semayang jumaat aku..hohoho...dah lama tak jumpa anak buah aku sorang tuh...cakap english slang scottish berabuk2. Sampai aku pon tak paham apa dia cakap.

adeh..demam dah ilang dah..tp sakit kepala ngan selsema tak ilang agi..rasa cam nak MC ari nih td tp memandangkan besok ngan jumaat aku nak cuti...tahan ler satu hari lagi...apa salah nyer..gaji pon tak masuk agi...kate jumaat la plak..tu yg rasa baik aku cuti jer khamis ngan jumaat..nak mai epf pon tadak duit dah nih!!!...kuikuikui

Pria Kesepian

adeh..malam sabtu..bosan giler..sbb duit tadak ler..hohoho...kalo ada duit dah lama dah gi tengok wayang kot. Nih tengah simpan duit for Transformers : Revenge of the fallen. Baca dia nyer synopsis cambest jerk. Ada 13 original transformers rupa nyer..huhu...aku mana ikut katun dia. baca synopsis dia cam menarik aa bunyi dia jalan citer.

Kete stream tak siap lagi. patut ari nih siap. Pomen kate takde spare part plak...adeh..bro kalo dah janji ari ni tuh, ari ni aa. Lu dah buat planning gua hancur aa ari nih..Kena balik kampung besok pagi plak ikut angah. awal plak tuh dia suh bangun. Kol 7 tuu. ari ahad lagi..perghh. besok balik kampung, tulun apa2 yg patut for dak li nyer wedding lagi dua minggu pastu balik kl. senin keje. perghhh. gaji tak dpt lagik.perghhh..huhuhu. banyak betul perghh nyer. takpe2. fikiran kena positip. after next week I think things will turn out to be better than this or last week. Hopefully. Nasib baik laa takde awek lagi. kalo ada awek, dah tergaru2 kepala mana nak carik duit belanja awek. Standard aa, bukan nak kate apa kan, tp mmg standard awek malaysia zaman skang. everything mesti ler lelaki kena foot the bill. alasan dia mmg ler lelaki kan pemberi nafkah. tak pon, eh, dia yg ajak kita bukan kita ajak dia. ewah, ewah byk cantik punya muka. huhu. Susah nak carik pompuan melayu skang. bukan apa. byk betul citer2 dlm surat khabar skang nih. Kumpulan Tiada Dara aa. Siap bertatu tati sini sana. dengan dedah sana dedah sini. pastu marah lelaki plak dayus, miang katenyer. wah, wah, wah. huhu. cam Dave Chapelle kate aa dalam sketsa dia;

"If i wear a police uniform and someone came up to me and say, 'Officer, Thank god you need to come with me quick!!.' Oh! Just because i wear something like this, that does not make me a police officer!! same goes for all these girls who wear tight clothes. when me and my friends were at a bar looking at this girl who was wearing tight clothes. my friend started shouting, 'tities! tities! tities!'. the girl goes,'Oh! just because i dress this way, does NOT make me a whore!'. Ladies and gentlemen what she said was true you can't jugde somebody just on how the way they look......but she was wearing a whore's uniform I can tell you that... "

Kesimpulan dia...Mana tak lelaki dayus, miang. kalo si pompuan nyer sengaja pakai baju dedah sana sini. pastu marah lelaki lak. we are just responding to our natural instincts. Fitrah manusia. Standard aa..kalo pompuan dedah sana sini lelaki takde rasa apa tu bukan fitrah manusia biasa dah tu...and it's those kind of men that you women jadikan member baik and tell them you could not find a decent man anymore. Bukan nak offend pompuan2 di luar sana. but this is a fact dengan SEGELINTIR pompuan di luar sana. Come on. Pompuan2 yang rasa diri dia camni kan...bangun dari alam fantasy anda. There are no decent men anymore...BS. there are a lot of decent men out there. there just not handsome enough for you, rich enough for you, mellow enogh for you so that you could control him, and many other reasons.

MEN are not PERFECT. WOMEN are not PERFECT. THAT is WHY we NEED each other to MAKE each other PERFECT. Think about it....you'll understand.

Tak kisah ler apa pon...janji baik hati...

Mimpi itu mainan tidur...

Yes. I know. Dreams are just mind games during sleep. But I just can't ignore last night's dream. It was pleasant but disturbing.In reality it could not happen because fate had already taken its course. But this dream...It was too real. It is like I was given another chance. The surroundings were familiar. The people in it are the people that I recognize and lastly, the feelings that were involved. The feelings were so real that I thought it was as real as it can be. Deep in my heart, I really wished the dream was real. I really wanted that moment to be still. So I could be there forever. But, alas, my alarm clock rang and it was 8.00 a.m. I was late!!!!

It's already 11 a.m and I can still remember what I was dreaming about last night. Can't really go into the details because it's just too embarrassing to write and I hope the people involved will not have to be worried. I don't like to make people worry. Hehe...

"If only IT was real...."

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes?
No..unfortunately

2. Slept in a different bed?
yes

3. Made out in a movie theatre?
No..also, unfortunately

4. made out with 2 different people in one night?
As far as I know...No

5. Thought your cousin was hot?
Which one? hehehe

6. Been in love?
Sure

7. Slept past noon?
A lot..

8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?
Yes...a very loooong time ago..

9. Gone over the speed limit?
All the time...

10. Painted your room?
No..like it the way it is..

11. Drove a car?
Of course..always..

12. Danced in front of your mirror?
heavens no..

13. Gotten a hickey?
Tragically...nope

14. Been dumped?
yup...

15. Stole money from a friend?
I don't think so..

16. Gotten in a car with people you just met?
Yes...when going to friday prayers..

17. Been in a fist fight?
Sure..for the record I won..

18. Snuck out of your house?
No..always with permission...I am a good boy..hehehe

19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
hahahaha...sadly..yes..

20. Been arrested?
Nope..model citizen..

21. Made out with a stranger?
nope..

22. Left your house with out telling your parents?
No..like I said..with permission

23. Had a crush on your neighbor?
Yes...just a crush..huhu

24. Ditched school to do something more fun?
Nope..what more fun then school? (Hahahahaa!!)

25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same or opposite sex?
Yup..when you're in boarding school...

26. Seen someone die?
Surprisingly no..

27. Been on a plane?
yup..turbulence is no fun

28. Kissed a picture?
Yes...

29. Slept in the opposite sex's bed?
Yes...

30. Love someone or miss someone right now?
Yes..

31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
All the time. But that was years back...

32. Made a snow angel?
Yup...back in the states..

33. Played dress up?
yes..for the international dinner play..

34. Cheated while playing a game?
Who hasn't??

35. Been lonely?
Always...

36. Fallen asleep at work/school
Always...

37. Been to a club?
Yes..

38. Felt an earthquake?
Not yet..

39. Touched a snake?
Not yet..

40. Ran a red light?
A couople of times...only when I'm late as hell..

41. Been suspended from school?
Almost..for carrying cigarettes..

42. Had detention..
yes...because of the cigarettes..

43. Been in a car?
How can i drive if i am not IN the car..

44. Hated the way you look?
sometimes..not always..

45. Witnessed a crime?
nope

46. Been lost?
Yeah..in KL..

47. Been to the opposite side of the country?
Yup..

48. Felt like dying from embarrassment?
yes..

49. Cried yourself to sleep?
Hell yes..

50. Sang karaoke?
Yes...

51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
Yes..like doing this survey..

52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose?
You sure its beverage? looks more like mucus to me..hehe

53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
nah...too childish..hehe

54. Kissed in the rain?
Almost...

55. Sung in the shower?
yes. not always

56. Had a dream that you married someone?
yes..

57. Played getting married?
I don't play2 with marriage...

58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?
almost...then my brain happens

59. Ever gone to school partially nude?
nope

60. Been a blind date?
almost....then anxiety kicked in and i rushed off..

61. Sat on a roof top?
yup...

62. Didn't take a shower for a week?
My record was 6 days........

63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?
yes

64. Played chicken?
yes

65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
no..always go to a pool with trunks on..

66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
truthfully..yes..but that is a longgg time ago..

67. Broken a bone?
no

68. Been easily amused?
yes

69. Laugh so hard you cry?
yes..but that was under the influence..huhuhu

70. Cheated on a test?
yes...

71. Forgotten someone's name?
yes

72. Blacked out from drinking?
nope..

73. Played a prank on someone?
yes.

74. Gone to a late night movie?
lots of times..

75. Made love to anything not human?
how can you love something not human..uhu

76. Failed a class?
yes..physics

77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat?
not really

78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours?
instrument? what instrument.?

79. Cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend?
never had a girlfriend..that i know of..

80. Did you celebrate the 4th of July?
Yes One time in US.

81. Thrown strange objects?
snow?

82. Felt like someone else?
sometimes..

83. Thought about running away?
One time...

84. Ran away?
Nope..

85. Had detention and not attend it?
nope

86. Made parents cry?
Yes...

87. Cried over someone?
Hell yes..hahahaha

88. Owned more than 5 sharpies?
what's a sharpie?

89. Dated someone more than once?
Yes...

90. Have a dog?
nope..

91. Own an instrument?
Yes..a guitar..never learned how to play it though..

92. Been in a band?
nope

93. Drank 25 sodas in a day?
does a bottle of 1.5 liter soda count?

94. Broken a cd?
yup

95. Shot a gun?
air gun count?

96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours?
nope...facebook yes...

97. Fell asleep at the computer?
A lot

98. Have a major crush on someone right now?
Yes..but..she already has a boyfriend..

99. Have a religion?
sure..Islam

100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral?
Yup.."he was sure a big fat guy..hahahaha"

Cepatnyer masa berlalu...

Hola~...Tuptaptuptap dah dua minggu aku berumur 25!!! dang...Gaji tak masuk lagik. Wargghhhh!! Tensen aku. kalo gaji aku beso bagak 10000 sebulan takde ler kisah...last month punya gaji mesti ada lagi...ni 2000 pon tak cecah bai...huhu...ilek2...bak kate makcik aku belaja susah2 dulu..nanti biler dah senang bole ler simpan sket2...huhu...takyah tunggu senang skang tengah susah pon aku simpan..tp takleh byk aa..kalo simpan byk2 aku nak makan apa nanti.

disebabkan bug fixing kat EPF, agreement aku pon tak dpt agi...Bos dah mintak tengok agreement dah kalo2 ada discrepencies ke apa. Mana aku nak dpt agreement agi..dah dua minggu aku tadak kat opis..ari ni baru fist day aku leh ilek2 kat sentul nih sbb feedback bug fix tu EPF kate jumaat nih baru dia leh bagi...so ada ler 3-4 hari aku leh ilek2 baca2 apa2 yg baru kat internet nih.

tang aku balik opis ni ler ramai majuk nak carik keje len (aku pon antaranya ler..), tp pikir2 balik, baru setahun setengah aku keje kat sini. Takkan nak blah kot. Ilmu blom cukup di dada lagik nih..ilek2 dulu lagi setahun dua ke, baru pikir nak berhijrah ke tempat len. Org kate aku ni tak pandai amik opportunity. Org kate susah2 ko blaja kat US ko keje company melayu jer ngan gaji kecik jer? Aku bukan apa beb. Apa2 hal bior ler aku carik ilmu keje dulu. Tak kisah aa gaji aku kecik ke beso ke janji cukup aa aku nak belanja bulan2 (walopon kekadang tak cukup gak..hehehe). Bila aku rasa aku dah ready, ilmu dah byk kat dada nih and aku rasa aku leh buat benda lagi challenging baru ler aku carik keje len. Skang nih is the time for me to learn all about the IT and computer industry in malaysia...bagi aku masa 2-3 tahun lagi bole kot. Aku bukan kisah sangat pon gaji kecik ke beso ke. Lain ler kalo aku nak kawin tp jodoh blom ada lagik so ilek2 aa dulu. Org tua2 kate sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit. So slow2 aku simpan sket2. nanti aku millionaire aa...huhu.

apa2 hal janji baik ati..

Quarter of a century....

I'm officially 25 yesterday ppl. damn. Feeling old and hopeless. tetiba teringat time muda2 dulu main ddr hari hari...arghhhh!! aku sudah 25!!

Ilek aa bro...baru 25, blom 30 lagi..huhu..target lagi setahun dua dah bole beli kete..huhu...apa2 hal hidup mesti selamba..huhu.



tak kisah ler apa pon janji baik hati...

settling down...complete!!!

Well, it has been a month since my last post. A lot had happened during my absence here on my blog. Man Utd overtook liverpool, Cavs swept Pistons in the playoffs, swine flu broke in mexico. As for me...finally settling in.

I have a lot of things that I want to do, buy or achieve in my life and I think with my current lifestyle it would be really difficult to achieve....

Anyway, all things whether good or bad happens for a reason. I just hope that the reason would bring meaning to my life.Now I feel that my life is empty. I just wake up every morning go to work interact with people, come back, eat dinner, sleep and go through the cycle over again the next day. I admit I am not a devote prayer. I always lose 5-0, sometimes 3-2 everyday when it comes to prayers. I am trying to better myself. But, whenever I try to, the emptiness just creeps in and left me feeling well...empty. Friends say I need someone to talk to maybe a girlfriend. Can't argue with that. I like to have a girlfriend, but I don't think that there is someone with my preference out there. If there is someone, maybe I am just not there type!! It is hard being me. Keeping secrets, making promises that I think I can't keep. Having friends but feels alone.

Damn, I really need something to do!! Something like a hobby. Maybe going to gym. huhuhuhu...going once is easy. twice. ok. third time. meh.....

Looking at my pictures when i was in Cleveland and i've realized that i have gotten really fat!!! arghhhh!!! Need to play basketball. Come on guys!!! when are we going to play basketball??!!!

After One Month

It's been a month since my last post. Don't be surprised if this is the only post for March AND April. I have a lot of work to be done back at the office. Finally connected w1max to my home. Internet in your own private room. Priceless. Haven't had this much privacy on the Internet since North Village 2007.

Went to my uncle's house yesterday for a visit. Same old, same old. Not much to chat about. But on the way back, I heard a disturbing conversation between my brother and my mom. Obviously the conversation was about me. I was pretending to be sleeping at the back when they had the conversation. I'm not mad about it. I'm just concerned. Well, the gist of the conversation is that I'm not matured enough, I'm always yelling when talking to family but not with friends or colleagues, I'm hot tempered, etc, etc.

How would you feel if you were sitting behind a car hearing a conversation that went like this, "He is very hot tempered. always yelling when talking. but he does not yell to his friends..blablablabla".

Let me explain WHY I sound like yelling when I talk to you guys. You don't treat me as a PERSON. you treat me as a SMALL CHILD. That is why whenever I need to convey something I need to sound like I mean it to you. I don't sound like yelling to my friends because they treat me with RESPECT and treat me as a person. Every opinion that i give they will listen. If it is wrong they will correct it for me. But you guys, when I give an opinion you chuckle it off. my opinion is like a small child rant. When I get my facts wrong you scold me off like I don't know anything and my views are not important. WHY? WHY are you treating me like a small child? Because you think I am immature?? My own family thinks I'm IMMATURE. WHY? Because I don't react to any of your lectures anymore?

You keep asking me why I don't react to your lectures like other people do? Because they know with your motivation they will be spirited to do their work and get their just rewards which is acknowledgment from their parents,family. Your motivation once worked for me because i hoped for the acknowledgment, the praise. But what did I get? Instead of ,"You did a good job even though you got 7A's 1B" I got, "Only 7A's? Why not 8A's?". I know you did that to encourage me in the future but I've fed up. even when i got a good CGPA you will ask why not 4 flat?

It pierced my heart over and over when you talk like that. you think i didn't work hard for it? you think i just go to the exam room and randomly answer. I'm ok with what you say if i were to get only 3a's or 2.9 CGPA but i already did my best. and i know my best will never be enough for you. Now you go on and say I'm immature?? I always did my best for you. Always. but my best is never enough. ever. Tha is why I stopped caring. I stopped listening to your 'lectures'. those lectures has no effect on me because i could not be bothered by them anymore. I am just a normal person. just like everyone else. I'm not a genius. I don't have an einstein's brain. I just have a normal brain. I just pick up something faster than others that's all. And i just want someone, ANYONE to say to me, "You did your best and i am proud of you."

BUT your not PROUD of ME are you? You're never PROUD of ME because I'M IMMATURE in your eyes.......

RHEL 5? Ubuntu 8.04? Windows XP?! Vista?!! 7?!!!

Arghh. A very upsetting week for me and it's not even the end of the week yet. Trying to configure the server for my present project. Still not fully configured yet. Need to be fully configured and up and running by Monday. Dammit!

Originally wanted to use Ubuntu OS because of the project team's familiarity with it but nooo. The management always want to have the final say. "No, no, no. We already have purchased the license for RHEL 5 so you lot have to use that.". Because we are using RHEL 5, which we are not familiar with, we had to reformat the server 3 times already!!! It would be much simpler if we used the OS that WE, as the developers and poor souls who are EXPECTED to 'know' how to configure a server, are familiar with. Makes things easier if you ask me. So here I am, with the team figuring out, scathing our heads thinking what the heck am I suppose to configure next?

For 3 days straight the team went home after midnight. All because of that damned server.

Monday => 2.00 am
Tuesday => 3.00 am
Wednesday => 4.00 am

Analyzing our past timetable would suggest that today we are going back home at 5 in the morning!! Not a chance mate!! I'll be trying to persuade the guys to go back early for once this week because I just can't take it anymore!!! warghhhh!!!!

iji

Web 2.0? uikk..Web 3.0 dah?? ngaaa...

That's the downside of being in the IT industry. When you thought you have been keeping up with the current technology the next thing you hear from someone is "Web 2.0? We are now going to 3.0 man. Where have you been??". Everybody now is talking about Web 3.0. Talking about Semantics search and all the other stuff that a Web 3.0 compliant website should have. I have not even grasped entirely on the Web 2.0 thingy yet. I am trying to, but with all the work that's coming my way just don't have the time. More over with the non-existent internet at casa de la big bro, I just can't do any surfing at home. Trying to change that but still waiting for P1 W1max to be available at Jalan Jelatek!!!! Streamix is not even an option and those small broadband modems can go f**k themselves. tried my brother's broadband modem at home and it did not even have 3 bars full and the speed was craaapppppppp. The reason I want to use P1W1max is that my office uses P1W1max and the speed is better than Streamix. I know, I know some Streamix fanatics will say that's because P1 doesn't have the number of customers that streamix has. That's why it is faster, just wait when there are a lot of P1 customers. Well, there is truth to that, but, but P1 doesn't limit your bandwidth like streamix does. So for a download maniac like me, Please P1, be available on Jalan Jelatek and Jalan Setiawangsa!!!

iji

Currently Brain Dead....

Finally!! Finished up the development for the latest project and finished up the Process Interview yesterday. I though those two thing would never be done. Now I'm just looking forward to the Chinese New Year holidays next week. Thinking of taking a three day leave on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. Let's see what the Project Manager and my HOD has to say about that. If I'm lucky, I'll get a 10 day holiday just for taking a 3 day leave!! Hehe.

It has been a while since I had the luxury of weekends. Since I was assigned to this project, weekends were like weekdays for me. Came to the office, did some coding until dusk then went home and watched football. If I had the energy left to watch the game..

I think it is a blessing in disguise. You know, my work. Even though my life seems hectic because of the work, it never was hectic. Really. At the end of the day I finished my work, happy that I did a good job(maybe..), could claim the company for overtime (hehehehe). All in all, life's great. For now.

The only downside to all the work is I have less time to write here. But there is nothing worthwhile for me to write about work. Just downloaded Russell Peters Red,White and Brown. Not as hilarious as his comedynow! stand up but it still made me laugh. Don't have free wireless at my house anymore. Maybe the owner of the router got smart and limited the number of computers that could connect to the router. Thinking of getting a broadband connection. W1Max? Jelatek no service lah. Streamix? Slow as hell!! Maxis? no use lah in apartment building. Celcom? same as maxis lah. At times like this, how I wish I was back at the states...sigh

Early update!!

I know it is still early in the morning but I don't have any internet connection at my house yesterday so i had to update my blog at the office before my boss finds out. Hehe.

Well nothing much happened since I last updated this blog. Mostly because I have been working day in and day out. Even on the weekends. Working on what you asked? Surely on the RoR project! What else? This is why I tell my friends it is not yet time for me to settle down. One word.

Work

I just don't have the time to go chick hunting. Hehe. I don't even have the time to finish my games! I know, I know. Anyone who reads this will call me a workaholic but that is not the case. It's just the deadline of each project that i got is just not well managed. It's not my place to complain. I know there are some issues that the management are facing and all that. So I just could not be bothered. The end result: shorter timeline, tons of workload.

Some people will ask. Are you gay? Hahaha. Of course not. Don't get the wrong idea when I say that I don't have a girlfriend or I have no time for a relationship. It is just that what I'm saying is true. Just don't have the time. Seriously, if a girl likes me and I have the time to spare I would go out with her but alas no time. I can't make time or reverse it. Honestly, everyday I am wondering what is in store for me in the future. What is my future like? Is it with someone that I truly care, love and respect or alone with no one but myself....

Happy New Year 2008...errr...2009...my bad

What a good way to start the new year with your boss shooting you down because you are behind schedule. Basically, IMHO, it's not my fault or even the team. Just that this thing has been mismanaged by the management people. That's all I can say.

Anyway, Happy New Year to anyone who is reading this. Every new year people will always talk about new year's resolutions. I don't have any certain resolution that I want to accomplish. Well, I have certain things that I want to do but not major stuff to count it as a resolution. My mum always say that I am a contented old man. Well, maybe I am. I just go with the flow. Ambitions, of course I have ambitions but not that I would fall in despair if I could not achieve it. I'm just thankful for what god has given. Sure I want a job that pays me a lot of money but what's the point if I am miserable at the job?

As of today, I am 24 years 7 months 14 days old. Seeing all my friends getting married at the tender age of 24, 25 and 26 years old is starting to make me feel old (I'm only 24 man!!). Doesn't mean that i'm not happy for them. I am happy for them and I wish them well. But, you know the feeling.

Already late....need to get back home....