9 days left

this is it..9 days left until i board a plane back to cleveland....heh...heard so many stories from the guys that stayed in cleveland and from those stories, i think i'm a little bit afraid to go back..yeah..me...afraid...a word i seldom use actually...well...the atmosphere in cleveland is changing...i'm changing...and i'm just afraid if i can't cope with it..my gut tells me i can cope with the 'changes' in cleveland but my heart says i can't...just have to find out for myself now...but it's partially my fault actually..i'm not gonna lay down all the facts here...let's just say i was too stupid to understand myself..i'm really getting wayyyy to far from my topic here...

oh yeah...just came back from taiping a couple of days ago...wanted to attend a wedding but my senior and i were a wee bit late...when we got there they were already finished cleaning up...wish i had my perdana back then...then i could wizz through the highway at 160 km/h and would be in taiping in a flash...but my mom would let me drive unless i have at least 3 frens with me...yeah2..i'm a momma's boy, so what?...her advices are the things that got me in cleveland...so i just obey them that's all..it's for my own good...well...if she saids so...it was her advices that restrained me from.....nah...don't want to talk about it...bad thing to do..i always say..dwelling on the past...i have to move on..nad it's hard..

all was not lost in my trip to taiping...got to meet badut...hanging out with badut, amet and jet was really...i don't have the word to describe it right now...just hold on to that thought...but i really felt guilty for blurting out something that annoys jet...sorry...i'm really, terribly sorry...at that precise moment i was acting like an idiotic fool blurting out stupid things...i don't know how to make it up to her....well....time will heal it...but...i really felt guilty...even dreamt about it too...i'm feeling it right now...oh well..

i think that's it for today...jeez...9 days left...it has been 2 months...still can't forget...still can't..