not in my range of understanding...

what is up with senior projects in CASE? especially for malay students? firstly, i just want to say seriously that i don't know anything about what is going on around here...first i'm on this team..and then i'm on a whole new team..but wait...isn't that guy on another team..what?? not in the same team anymore? i don't know man...i think there was one night where i smoked the joint and all of this teaming up thing goes haywire you know..just don't know what is real anymore...i know that there are some specific individuals that some people want to be in their team...i really don't care about that because i..really don't care honestly but..when there are some changes or anything...inform everyone pls...and i mean EVERYONE...i really feel bad about feezul..but..i can't do anything about it because i misunderstood the situation...well, i am human mind you..now i'm really feel fucking guilty about what happened...but the past is the past..and i hope that we still are friends...damn...senior projects...fuck..i really don't give a damn anymore...i just want to graduate and rid of myself of these things and go find a job or go do my masters or anything else...i really blame our seniors for the lifestyle that my class of 2007 is living right now..."have fun now, study later" is their motto...well, i didn't hear it from them but i got the feeling that is the message that they conveyed to us...well just look at us now..3 of us has gone back home without a degree..that sucks...wasted 2 years here in US and going home starting all over again from scratch...and..don't bullshit saying that those two years were not wasted because you made "friends"....with all the backstabbing stories i've heard i'm starting to doubt that..i don't care if you are going to make someone's life miserable, but please make sure you are not going to see them in a long time after that..because it creates pressure and i hate pressure...don't get me wrong...i can handle pressure but i just hate it...which bring us back to the senior projects thingy above..oh, please let there be no more conflicts after this..please...